Christmas is the time I feel the most alone.  It seems that everyone has someone and something to do but not me.  Yeah I do the usual but no one comes to visit.  Now my hubby is using my car more cause he hates his truck and that leaves me stranded.  Yesterday was a good day.  We had a baby reveal at my grandsons and they are having twins.  A boy and a girl.  We are so excited.  I spent the  morning looking for twin outfits on etsy.  So fun.

I have really been down lately and I do not know what to do.  I quit going to church cause I feel like I do not measure up to what the church wants me to do.  The LDS church is just to all consuming.  My children do not go and I want to be with them.  The church makes it seem like if you do not do everything just so you will.

I spend time with my hubby but lately all he thinks about is himself and his brother.  When I got married I did not realize I was marrying two Valerios. 

I am just having a pity party today.  I wanted to go to the store to get some things to make some treats and now I cannot.  Oh well there is always tomorrow.  

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